Girly talk :P

I’m a naturally awkward person around people I’m not close with or don’t know too well, so naturally I’ll tend to avoid awkward situations.

Even if we don’t see each other often and even if I’m like that with you, still.. you’re always the first to say hello…. we don’t say anything much when ever we’re around each other & sometimes its super awkward, and i’m just there… blank, trying to think of something to say, in the end all i could come up with is hello… and bye.Sometimes its really obvious that you’re being careful (& its cute lol), but at the same time, It feels like you’re looking out for me. And all the times after that where I wanted to thank you, but never really opened up about it.

so for those short times we’re together, I’m happy that we have atleast this much. One day I’ll have the confidence to tell you everything.

Balance & Motivation

Something is different. I don’t know when it started but more and more, I feel motivated than ever to do better, and get ahead of school work. Sometimes it even comes down to giving up recess and lunch & free periods with the friends I normally eat/hang with just so I can do some homework and study, sometimes with or without company.

just rambling :P

I know I hardly ever facebook, or tumblr… or anything to do with blogging and venting out all my thoughts. But I just felt like doing it today.

I admit that I’m not at all close with either of my parents, pretty much they don’t know anything about me these days.

I forgot to take my phone with me to school yesterday, i accidentally left it on the couch.

 While i was at school i got 2 messages, obviously i wasn’t there so my dad ended up seeing them, i didn’t really care though, it was just school related, plus there wasn’t anything else cos i only got this iphone recently.

But suddenly today, my mum starts talking about “how its ok to have boys as friends” and blablabla “you’re to young” bla bla bla. So yeah, since i’m not close with my mum, it felt weird hearing her say these things like she knew everything, who my friends are and who i talk to. At that very moment, i realised that my dad went through my other text messages!

SO ANGRY!!!!  

In my inbox, there are only 2 guys out of all the other people, both of them which were just birthday messages -.-

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But i’m more annoyed  at the fact that, they were so quick to make these assumptions.

Before they should even assume those things, i wish they knew a few things about me first, and maybe they would know that i’m a reserved/modest kind of girl, only because they raised me in a way which was so overprotective, but still, i prefer being a reserved type of person :P

They think that everything will turn out as bad as you hear it on the news, just because of where we live. They wouldn’t make such a big fuss if this happened back in the Philippines -.-